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 Sweat,
forming on his brow in spite of the cold, heart pounding, fingers trembling.
Shapes, in the gloom, moving, bracken swishing, hooves thumping and clumping
on the well-trodden frozen ground. Dragon-breath smoking plumes, steaming
harbingers, five dark shapes behind the billowing clouds, four-footed,
heavy, advancing through the clearing to the stream. Deer.
Carfax held
his breath, and watched, and waited, paralysed but for neck and eyes. The
deer were magnificent, unafraid, unaware, and clumped across the clearing
twenty yards in front of him. Their breath-plumes drifted towards him,
and he caught their scent, a strange, damp-sweat odour he'd never known
before.
Deer, standing
line-abreast, on the bank of the stream, heads dipping to the cold, clear
water, ears twitching. Carfax, watching from the brush, hands trembling,
breathing shallow, heart pounding, muscles tense, waiting, mouth dry with
fear and excitement.
The one nearest
him was big, certainly no fawn, an adult doe, graceful and tall, and standing
almost broadside-on. John adjusted his grip on the arrow, and braced himself.
If he attacked now, and was successful, the doe would fall in the stream
and the man would freeze dragging it out. He waited, stomach churning with
adrenaline, mouth dry as ashes, listening to the sounds of the animals
drinking.
The doe lifted
its head, water dripping from its muzzle to splash in the gurgling stream
beneath. She turned then, to her left, towards the man hidden behind the
bushes, and for a fleeting moment Carfax stared straight into her face.
Not a hint of recognition, no sign that she'd seen the man, and her head
swung around as she turned to face the trail back towards the woods, skin
rippling over flexing muscles and slender legs moving, gracefully.
Carfax suddenly
felt distant, numb, detached, and he rose from behind the bracken, muscles
powering his tall frame upright. His left arm extended, pointing at the
animal, and the right arm blasting forward, hurling the arrow. The moment
the string snapped free of the shaft his brain knew, he knew, it
would strike its mark.
John watched,
seeing the animal's head lift slightly, ears snapping upright. Heard the
sudden silence of the forest as the other deer stopped lapping at the water
and froze, muscles tense. Saw the four-foot arrow as it sped across the
timeless distance between his hand and the doe, saw the gentle spin of
the fletching. Felt the wood of the spear as he transferred it to his right
hand, the bowstring dangling from his gloved wrist. Heard the deep and
solid thunk! of the arrow's impact, and saw it slice deep into the
animal's body, just behind the shoulder-blade.
He watched as he
stepped forward out of cover, raising the spear into a throwing position,
saw the other animals spring away from the stream, momentarily airborne
as they blasted, muscles rippling, away from him. He heard the stricken
animal bellow, a single, horrible sound shattering the tranquil forest
air, and saw her head go up, neck extending.
He leapt from the
bracken, two great strides, arm drawing back, and watched as the doe's
front legs crumpled, no grace in its movements now, no beauty. John saw
the doe's face plunge into the furrowed snow, the accursed white powder
flying up around the beautiful head. Two more strides, and the other animals
were away into the gloom, crashing through bracken and gorse in their terror,
abandoning their companion to her fate.
Another stride,
and the doe's hind legs gave way, the heavy sound of the body collapsing
onto the unyielding ground mingling with the laboured grunt of the beast.
He ran, then, great loping strides, and the fear and excitement and distance
gave way to elation. Then he was standing above the fallen beast, looking
down, seeing the breath puffing from its wet, snow-covered nostrils, seeing
the one brown eye looking up at him, surrounded by white, terrified and
confused.
John dropped his
spear, and knelt, and pulling off his gloves, reached out to touch the
doe's face. Warm, he thought, and soft. The arrow, angling out from the
doe's right side and stone point embedded deep within, moved back and forth,
waving like a signalman's flag with each short puff of steam from the doe's
muzzle. He looked down, then, and felt the fear of the animal as it trembled
beneath his hand, and his elation turned to grief and ineffable guilt.
Tenderly, he lifted
the animal's head from the cold, hard earth, and cradled it in his lap,
resting it on the fur tabard while he gently stroked its ears. After a
few moments, the white-circled terror faded, leaving only the deep brown
staring up at him as he gently murmured, crooning like a mother to an infant
child. The arrow waved slower, now, and the dam that held John's tears
gave way. He stroked and whispered, rocking back and forth, until, with
a final, shuddering sigh, the arrow stopped waving, and the doe died.
He held it
while the tears subsided, wiping his eyes and nose and rocking back and
forth in the pre-dawn light. Daybreak would come soon, he knew, the sun
would slice open the gloom through the distant trees, banish the darkness
once more. Birds, what few there were in this frozen wilderness, would
call out their greeting to the new day, and the stream would gurgle merrily
on its way. But the doe would not know the hope and joy of these things
again, for John had taken its magic forever, and he knew it; finally, with
his fingers lightly resting on the doe's cooling brow, he understood.
John felt
Skull standing behind him, felt the Neanderthal's massive but tender hand
resting lightly on his shoulder, and when he looked up, he saw the profound
recognition in the awful dark eyes and the bitter-sweet smile of a terrible
secret shared.
"Where are all the
forests, John Carfax? All the trees that once covered this land? Where
are all the animals? The wolf and the bear once lived here, and now they
are gone. The seas and rivers and lakes once teemed with fish, now they
too are almost gone. There is only so much magic to go around, John Carfax,
and your people are taking it all. Soon, there won't be any left, and your
people will be forced to give back what they've taken. When that happens,
and you are few again, then the earth will return to the way it was before,
in my time, when people understood these things."
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